Day 1

I realize that I need to stop caring about him, its hurting me more and more. The best remedy is stop caring. At the end we're both going to walk our separate ways. I'm going to stop telling him how I feel or ask him about his. I don't want to hear about him or know what he's doing, right now I'm slowly trying to get him out of my system it hurts too much and I am not going to let my emotional strain me. I guess you could say after hearing those words come out of his mouth he kind of kill a part of my love, and especially when he said I extended my stay. Back in March when he made a statement about me sleeping around I was really hurt now he's saying it again. He does'nt realize though that I'm coming to the point where not only does his words effect me but it is also kicking some love out of my system. One day I'm just going to realize that enough is enough and whatever love I have for him is gone. I don't even recall him say I'm sorry..maybe the time is here for me to hate him. I will never forgive him for what he said to me or hurt me for saying that. I wish I had not pick up his call on Friday, why o why am I so weak??? I really need to work on that part of myself. Never again will I let another male get in my life and change me..NEVER AGAIN!! I CAN TRULY PROMISE MYSELF THAT~~